Experiencing 'phantom loyalty' to an ex

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Experiencing ‘phantom loyalty’ to an ex

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I was in a relationship with someone I genuinely believed I would marry. In my mind, I had already committed to a future with him – life plans, emotional loyalty, everything.

He abruptly ended the relationship, and I’ve since moved on and am with someone new I care about. But I still find myself feeling something I can only describe as a “phantom loyalty” to my ex. It’s not that I want to go back to him, but emotionally it sometimes feels strange to fully exist in a new relationship when I once had such a strong sense of commitment elsewhere.

I don’t act on it and haven’t talked to him in six months since the relationship ended, and I don’t want to disrespect my current relationship, but I’m trying to understand this feeling. Is it normal to still carry emotional attachment in this way after you’ve mentally “built a life” with someone? And how do you fully let go of that internal loyalty so you can be present where you are now?

Some people say six months is a short period of time to move on from such a deep relationship, but we had our own lives outside of the relationship. I’m someone who loves to travel and have a strong social circle. Moving on isn’t hard with all that going on, I’d say.

– Attached

I googled the phrase “phantom loyalty” to see if it could be the name of a “Mission Impossible” movie.

What I found was a post written by someone who uses the phrase in the context of marketing – to explain customers’ feelings for brands that no longer exist.

That seems to match what’s happening here. The company (your relationship) is out of business, but you’re still carrying the loyalty card.

That’s OK. Sometimes we miss people who left us years ago. Other times we dream about them. It makes sense that you still think about a man you thought you’d love forever.

I believe you when you say you’re moving on (note the present tense) and living your best life, but there’s still a ritual in your brain. It might take many more months to undo that. Also: grief is a process. You might feel fine at six months, but have a lot of sadness at eight. That’s OK, too.

As far as breakups go, the goal isn’t to Etch A Sketch-erase your exes. They’re part of your story.

Please don’t feel guilty about this person crossing your mind while you’re with someone new. You’re capable of multitasking.

– Meredith

Readers? Ever experienced phantom loyalty? What about after finding someone new?

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Featured Comment

Feelings, like behaviors, can become a habit. Thinking of your ex is a habit. So do what you would do to break any undesirable habit: you don’t indulge it. It takes discipline. You don’t get sentimental or nostalgic, you distract yourself with other thoughts or activities. Eventually, the habit will weaken its hold on you and, ultimately disappear.

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